the drafting process.

It was late at night, the house was quiet, the clock was ticking and it would seem that i was sitting on my bed, only I was not. I was at a different place, you know the place we all know so well yet loathe so much; the place of uncertainty. I don’t really like this place. when I’m here, i tend to find myself asking questions that have no answers and having answers without the questions. Does that make sense? I guess not, its all a bit blurry at the moment. It was during this visit that i grabbed out my journal and started writing questions, and answers, and questions, and answers, and so on. As i was questioning certain things, i started rambling on about something interesting. Something that actually made sense.

The drafting process. Have you ever been at that place when absolutely nothing makes sense? You feel as if you’ve wasted all this time working on certain things to simply be rewarded with failure? Ah, i know that feeling all too well, and i guess i was looking for an answer to it. As i questioned so many things about my life i somehow came to the idea of the drafting process. I believe that my life right now, or the life i plan to live is not the life that has been planned for me. I think what I’m living in at the moment is sort of like the “drafting process”. You know, that long and painful process where changes and mistakes are inevitable, the part where nothing is certain until the plan is completed.

I think God has this massive plan out there for each of us, but before he lets us experience it, he wants to make sure we’re prepared. So he puts us through this difficult journey where we are tested to our limits. He wants us to be ready to take on whatever it is he has planned, he wants us to go through this drafting process before we can start to live out his plan. Although this process is somewhat unbearable, i think the gifts we reap once our plans are completed far outweigh the changes we have to face. Picture it like this, imagine if an apartment building was constructed using the drafts and plans of a law firm – it wouldn’t really fulfil its purpose right? I know, its a bit of a lame example, but you get the picture. God wants us to go through this drafting journey so we are built ready for his plans.

I think I’ve just begun the drafting process, I don’t fully understand what plans will eventuate from the draft. But i can tell you this, it will be amazing.